well i've written this letter over and over again but i was never proud of actually sending it to you, because it was just to structured in the end to even seem real, so now i'm just gonna write what comes to mind.
this is for a girl i once thought that as my best friend, truth is that this year we barely know eachother. i used to tell everyone that you were my bestfriend, but who was i kidding, i was learning about you from other people things you would never seem to tell me. yet i was the one who was telling you everything. i did tons of stuff for you, to remind you that people would never forget you, but you know very well that you were one of the most popular girls at our school, i was the good friend of the great laura. when people asked me how you were doing, they knew more what was happenning to you then me. i guess it's because of what happenened last year, i wouldn't blame you. yet i feel i spent a year just trying to pay up for that, don't think i did a good job at it or anything.
i wish things between were actually a sort of friendship, but i can't continue trying when nothing comes in exchange. i wish when you look back at al the things i've tried to do for you, you realised how much you meant to me. everytime i made the first move to talk to you, reach you. i know i was wrong for last year, i know you want a good explination, we were never able to really talk about it. but i can't change that, its up to you.